Ya know, I am kind of stressed out about this "funk" I am in (coming out of). This is the first funk I've been in in the past THIRTEEN weeks. This kind of funk is also what KILLED every diet I've ever been on in my life. I can NOT let this funk kill it this time. I have come too far. This time has to be different. I have to overcome it this time.
So...(dare I say it?)....what do you do when you are in this spot? In the past I would have said "well, I tried" and then binge. But NO. I'm just putting my foot down- NO! no no NO no No nO. no.
Maybe.............just maybe.................... well, what do YOU think it is? Why now? After 13 weeks? Why is this such a battle now when a week ago it was so easy? I think I know and you are going to say Oooooooookayyyyyy with a weird look on your face but I think I know what it is.
I think it is spiritual warfare.
I said it.
Quit rolling your eyes. I'm serious.
What about people who are addicted to drugs? When they surrender to Jesus and are trying to get clean, do you think the devil wants to let them go? No. He fights. Same thing goes with any other addiction that is bad for us. So, why not gluttony? I believe this obesity thing is just as bad and as wrong as cigarettes or (some) drugs or alcoholism. So, why isn't it labeled as sin like the other things are? Maybe, in God's eyes, it is.
I believe there are spiritual wars that go on that affect our lives and that we can feel oppression from those wars. God, Satan and myself ALL know that I was overcoming some lifelong addictions and that I was on my way to being freed from some chains that hinder me from becoming what I am meant to be. So, I think the devil is fighting. And the only way I know of to fight back is to fast and pray. So, I won't be having anything except water until I wake on Saturday morning. I'm not fasting to save calories. I'm fasting to overcome. I will.
I will. I will. I will. I will.
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.
I'd appreciate your prayers.
~that TOPS lady