Wednesday, July 13, 2011

struggle, struggle

Confession: I am struggling today. I feel like a bottomless pit. I am soooo hungry. But not for veggies or fruit. :) Hungry for bread, noodles, carbs. Nuts. Junk. ugh! I haven't broken my fast from soda, fast food and dessert, and I won't...because that is different.

Still, I'm struggling with the bottomless pit today.

It's just an out of whack day! I'm sitting here in my gown (just got out of shower and don't want to put church clothes on until after supper). I should get up and get busy! Much to do! But I'm sitting here.

And I don't even want to go to church tonight. (but I will) I want everyone else to go and leave me alone. LOL I think I'm needing some alone time.

I don't know what my deal is today but I need to snap out of it! If you pray, pray for me! :) thanks

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Venting about homeschooling

I would vent on my homeschool blog, but I am locked out of it! That really adds to my frustration!

First of all, a little background. I love homeschooling. My kids are 9 and 12 and have never been "in school". Whether you agree or not doesn't matter. I love it. It is my conviction.

Also, my husband is socially backward. He is super quiet and doesn't look people in the eye, etc. That's just him. And yes, he was public schooled. My 12 year old son is just like him. Awkward.

I just got off the phone with someone whose opinion I respect (my mother of all people!) and they said "Amy, why don't you see how much the christian school costs? Your kids are getting older and they need to be around other kids." It was a huge slap in the face and I want to cry but I held myself together. (btw, I am in a homeschool social group and we have once per month field trips and once per month park days) I replied "Oh, but I LIKE to homeschool." You know how you hear what someone is saying and you interpret it? I interpreted her remarks as the following: "You are failing at homeschooling your kids. They are social outcasts." Well, guess what. My kids have the personality they have because that is just who they are. I believe they would still be extremely quiet even in the midst of a million other kids their age. Do you know their dad? Are my kids not a splitting image of him socially? Yes. They are. And their dad was public schooled. It didn't make him a social butterfly. *sigh* I just need to vent. >>>>>going to talk to my (heavenly) Daddy.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

I'm still a loser.

I lost 3 pounds this week :) Despite the fact that I didn't count calories for one day (July 4th) or at supper one night. So, yay!