Saturday, March 21, 2015

excuse me, I'm going to the gym

Seasons of "easy" are few and far between. If one is successful with whatever they are endeavoring in, they must learn to roll with the punches and deal with "hard".

Monday during the allotted time to go to the gym on the way to my TOPS meeting, I instead drove all the way back home (a different town) because I had forgotten important papers for the meeting. My one hour at the gym turned into 20 minutes.

Tuesday I drove my son to his weekly, 5 hour long Mother's Day Out program. I was then going to go to the gym, spend concentrated time working on my book, then go to the gym a 2nd time before picking baby up. However, when I walked in the MDO building, the receptionist caught me and told me I must have not been informed---they were closed this week for Spring break. No gym for me. I went home and pouted.

My gym days are Mondays, Tuesdays and Fridays. Friday, today, my mother needed me to drive her to run an errand that was going to take about 2 hours. It wasn't her fault. She doesn't drive. This errand needed to be done. But I was getting tired of life cheating me out of my gym time. Hubby is very backed up with work (which is a HUGE blessing and I am not complaining because we could use the money) and could not help me in the childcare department.

So...............something rose up in me and I came up with a crazy plan. I drove mom to run her errand-- and dropped her off there WITH my three kids. I told my teen daughter I would pay her if she would help with the baby. And I went to the gym FOR AN HOUR.

Our gym is divided into three sections. The first section had a guy riding an exercise bike and watching some boring show on it. The 2nd section had some guys lifting weights and I walked right past them, jiggle hips and all, and found my favorite treadmill and the remote to that tv (which was not on) and I spent the next hour walking and watching HGTV.

Then I picked mom and the kids up. Mom wanted ice cream and so she and the teens got ice cream and I did not (go me!)

And we got home about 10 p.m., which was about 25 minutes ago.

Point being: today was not exactly easy to deal with the gym and there was junk food temptation but I'm super proud of how I allowed myself to be taken care of and didn't throw myself down on the train tracks of self pity.

In other news, I took the memory card from my cpap in to the office to be read today, as insurance won't pay unless I meet their usage requirements. They require that at least 21 days out of 30, that the cpap is in use at least 4 hours. I wear it every night. However, after baby wakes and has a bottle and ends up in bed with us, I don't put it back on. It's hard to wear with the baby in the bed and almost impossible to put on with one hand while holding the baby. However, the report showed that I didn't get 4 hours per night enough nights *sigh* Thankfully, insurance is giving me another chance, so I guess I'm going to master the art of tending to baby while wearing the cpap. That, or I will master the art of poking hubby in the rib and saying "get your kid!" Ha. Yeah. No. I don't see that being very likely. Thankfully, Abby wants baby to move to her and sleep with her after he turns one, which is I am SO going to let her. I tell you, tending to a baby at age 36 is not the same as it was at 21!

And with that, I wish you all a good night. Thanks SO much for reading!

-that TOPS lady

Saturday, March 7, 2015

stomach bug

The stomach bug has hit our house. That's all I have to say about that. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, March 2, 2015

Be Hungry (Fight For It) - video

Tonight at our TOPS meeting, we begin a 10 week challenge hosted by TOPS headquarters.  I want it to be a big deal.  I want to see success in our chapter.

I plan to show this video before the meeting. 

*follow your heart*

Sunday, March 1, 2015

March's goals

Ah! *inhales deeply* :) A new month!

Let me start by getting the crummy stuff out of the way. After the first two months of the year, I stand at a two pound GAIN. What?! *insert crazy face here* I can cry about that or I can benifit from the reality check.
The reality is: if I stay on this course, I will not have a significant gain at the end of the year.

Not only that, I'm still going to be the ultra fat girl at the 5K this June. I've thought about that a lot today, for some reason. It was ok to be fat the first year because I was just starting my journey. The 2nd year it was ok to still be fat because I was at least showing a 50 pound weight loss progress. The third year was last year and I had regained 35 pounds but I told myself that was still ok because I had just given birth 3 months prior.

But this year? This year if I'm still the fat girl, I think I will get some looks of "Dude. That girl is STILL fat. The 5k must be the only healthy thing she does all year! hahahaha" sigh. No. gag.
I'm tired of being the fat girl at the 5K. And I'm tired of saying "I'm on a weight loss roll and I'm really doing it this time!" and then NOT doing it. TIRED OF THAT!!!!!!!!!!

And you've heard me say it before--- "I'm going to do such and such" and then I tell you my plan. And often I have failed with that plan.

But sometimes I succeed. In 2012, I reached my lowest adult weight and could say I had lost 81 pounds. I did SOMETHING right in the midst of the failures.

I say that to say this:
I'm making a plan for March, a challenge to myself. Something to go by. Advice to myself.

And so tonight, I just want to share it-- because--- well, just because. Because accountability is a good thing.

I weighted this morning: 288.

March's plan:

*Preplan all of my meals for the week on the weekends--- Breakfast, lunch and snack will be the same each day (because I spend wayyyy too much time overthinking things) then supper will vary. I will plan all of this out, leaving 500 unplanned calories per day to eat whatever I want.

*I will drink at least 4 bottles of water per day---which is 67.6 ounces (this is just a bare minimum)

*I will be in bed by 9:45 every night.

*I will read in my Runner's World magazine at least a few minutes every day

*I will exercise at least 5 days per week as follows:
-Sundays- rest day
-Mondays- one hour at the gym before TOPS
-Tuesdays- at least one hour at the gym during Mother's Day Out (maybe more)
-Wednesdays- rest day
-Thursdays- train with my daughter for the 5k- this may be at the track on or dvd if necessary
-Fridays- one hour at the gym- hubby or someone (!!) watch baby-- go right after school
-Saturdays- walk with family OR do a dvd

*Eat all food for the day before baby goes down for bed at 8

*Only weigh at home once per week (with the exception of the last day of the month for a final number)

Let's see what happens!

TOPS is also beginning a 10 week challenge beginning tomorrow, so that will probably be helpful too.

I SO want to do this. I want to succeed. I'm tired of just dreaming.

Thanks for your support and thanks for reading!!