Tuesday, July 14, 2009

weigh in, my day, and what I felt God spoke

Here's all of today's food intake, in pictures. I ate every single calorie today but I did NOT go over! whoo hoo! Today is probably the first time in 2 weeks that I've not gone over. So, hopefully I am on my way back. I am.

Well, you reap what you sow and tonight at TOPS I reaped a 2 week total gain of 4.5 pounds. That's what I deserved. That's what I got. That is over and we are now on week 18. New week. Putting the past behind me.

Well, this is another one of those posts where some people will say "oooooooooooookay" and have that weird look on their face. Anyway, you may remember me telling a short while back about my pastor preaching about how our body, soul and mind/attitude are all connected. That night I sincerely prayed that God would heal me, change me and make me what I am meant to be in every aspect of my being.

It wasn't long after that that I felt like God told me to sleep for 10 hours per night for the next 3 nights. I kind of wondered "Is God really prompting my mind with that or is it just me?" so I asked for confirmation. I opened my Bible to a random scripture 3 different times. The first scripture had the word "time" in it. Next scripture had the words "she" and "lay down". The 3rd scripture had the word "time" in it again. I took that as confirmation enough and you all know that I DID do the 10 hour thing for those 3 days and how wonderful I felt those days. I learned from this that my body needs 10 hours per night, at least right now it does. It may change later.

Well, I am such a night person. I love the quiet of the night when everyone else is alseep. I get lost in cyberspace and time flies. Hubby goes to sleep......alone. I get to bed a couple of hours before he gets up and I don't feel like getting up for 5:30 prayer with him. I feel like sleeping the day away the next day and if I don't, I feel like poo and my attitude suffers. This is not God's will. (obviously)

Well, last night, I got lost in cyberspace and I was crawling into bed at 3 a.m. There is a chair in my bedroom where I pray sometimes and I have to walk past it to get to my side of the bed. As I was walking past that chair, I felt so bad for having stayed up so late again. So not a virtuous woman. I decided to kneel there for a second.

I harldy got 2 words out of my mouth when I felt God speaking to me "That's your trap." You see, I am not even tempted by many things that are considered sins. I don't lie, steal, cheat or cuss. Never crosses my mind. But I do often feel like I am "in a fog" and not very alert and not happy and not all that I could be. So, that's how I end up feeling that way.........from wacko sleep schedules, from staying up too late........THAT is the trap that I am in so often. I've never seen the trap before. I could feel the trap. I knew I was in one. But I didn't know how it came to be that way. Know I know. Staying up too late is MY trap. The one the devil has picked especially for me, to drag me down. He knows how I am!

A scripture came into my head.... something about " if someone sets a trap for a bird, and the bird SEES them setting the trap, surely they should know that the bird will never fall for it". Well, since God let me "see" what my trap is, I don't have to fall for it again.

I will be pushing the "off" button on the computer at 10 p.m., if not before. God has great things for my life and for my family. I refuse to be hindered, especially when God is being so gracious and working with me!

Today I looked up the bird scripture and I also found another one I thought was good:

Proverbs 1:17 "Surely in vain the net is spread in the sight of any bird."

Psalm 142:3 "When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then thou knewest my path. In the way wherein I walked have they privily laid a snare for me."

Thanks for reading. You guys are great. Just think of how improved we all will be a year from now. Surely we will look back on these posts and laugh with a great joy!!!!


  1. Yes, yes...your journey is a developing success. I'm so proud of you for staying within your calorie budget!

    Rest is paramount to our over all well being. I need to realize that myself!

    My best always,

  2. I firmly believe he is sending you a message. If we could just quiet our minds more we might hear more of what he was saying. What a wonderful post and thanks for sharing!

    P.S. I am looking forward to next year and seeing all our WONDERFUL progress

  3. Oh I just love your honesty and your willingness to be completely who you are. I believe the same things--that God speaks to us (when we listen) and that Satan tempts us or tries to destroy us. I think that I was dealing with some of that today as well. I hope that you will be able to go to bed at 10 pm every night and that you will feel rested and able to be the woman you are destined to be during the day! I will pray for rest. DH and I have recently conquered an obstacle that was hindering both of us and what a huge blessing that has been! You can do this. Great job on your day! Week 19 will show great results! Blessings--Bonnie

  4. Okay--where is Tops Lady today? I miss you. Hope you are all well.

  5. And here I am today, a year later. I found out that if you don't take heed to the things you KNOW, you will not make progress. May I not only *have* wisdom, but use it as well. Today I weigh 309 point something. If I come back next year to read this post, may I be at or near goal.