Monday, April 12, 2010

Weekend druggie :(

Once again, sorry for the pictureless post.

Saturday and Sunday were not good. When I had my "eat whatever you want because it is your birthday" day on Friday, I awakened the sugar/carb addiction within me. Saturday I didn't do well. I finished off the birthday cake....and ate quite a bit of pasta. I felt physically dependent on these things. I know that sounds silly, but if you've been there, you know, and if you haven't then you don't.

I realized that in order to get over this, I was going to HAVE to STOP eating the bad stuff... as long as you eat it, you will keep craving it.'s like a drug, really.

So, Sunday I determined to eat healthy. But sometimes willpower is not enough. I felt like I was starving. But still, I stayed within calories UNTIL time for bed. I felt like I just HAD to have something sweet. had too. Luckily, there was nothing "sweet" in the house (i.e. ice cream, little debbies, etc). I knew a binge was coming on and I felt powerless to stop it. So......I compromised on myself. I told myself that I could eat granola cereal with almonds in it (because it does taste a little sweet but it is a natural sweet) BUT that I had to eat it out of a punch cup. LOL A punch cup! tiny! I refilled it twice. :)

So.............Saturday was ppfpfftttt.

Sunday was not perfect but making progress out of this terrible stronghold.

And today is Monday. New week. I'm forgetting the things that are behind and focusing on today.

Last night, our pastor preached about "man's days are few and full of trouble"....about life is NEVER going to be perfect...there are ALWAYS going to be struggles. He preached about learning to live life to the fullest DESPITE the struggles....about NOT WAITING for the struggle to end to enjoy your life. I thought it fit my weight loss stuff perfectly.
I hope you have a great day and thanks for reading!!!! :)


  1. Well goodness, where have I been at lol. I'm sorry I haven't been reading along. For some reason I thought you had stopped posting on your blog. Anyway, I'd love to have you join the challenge.

    I know all to well what you mean about the eating of the sugar and then it having a hold on you. I find though that if after one day like that the next day I don't have that first bite of sugary stuff I'm good to go from that point on. Not having that first bite though sometimes is hard. Hang in there, being aware is the first hurdle. Hope you have a good day.

  2. So sorry this was a hard weekend for you. I'm glad you are getting into a fresh new week now though.

    You are so right about the sugar acting like a drug. There is some new research I read recently that says that about half of the overweight population is sensitive to sugar, and it DOES react to them like a drug, causing cravings. The other half do okay with the "moderation" approach, and they can eat anything they want, just controlling the portions.

    I am in the "sugar is a drug to me" camp! So I totally get your struggle.

    Have a wonderful fresh week!

  3. I totally understand the sugar drug!! It's so hard once i start eating it to stop :(
    My problem is not to go there again!!