Sunday, May 16, 2010
fight. fight. fight. overcome.
Trying to break free..............
The family has gone to church. I stayed home with ol' broken tooth..or at least maybe that is why. I think that's an excuse too. Really, I just wanted some alone time.
And now I am here with "The lost get found" by Britt Nicole blaring. I am trying to break through. I feel like a bouncy ball. Yesterday I hit the floor. Today I am on my journey back up. Although it is low, it is higher than yesterday.
Figuratively, I have an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other. One is telling me to exercise and plan healthy meals for the coming week. The other is telling me to cook a grilled cheese and toast and jelly and eat and goof off on the internet. I KNOW which one will make me feel better.
"So when you get the chance........are you gonna take it?"
I wish I weren't so alone. I'm not, but I am. I don't have a *close* friend. I've had one close friend in all of my adult life, and since we moved in '07, she now lives 800 miles away. I still consider her to be my best friend, but it is hard when we are so far apart. We are both busy. We don't talk often.
Please........please comment me. You just don't know how much it helps to know I am read.
I've been searching the blog world for a kindred spirit. There's a lot of great people out there, but I haven't yet found one to be MY weight loss buddy. Maybe I don't need one. Maybe I need to be my own friend and quit treating myself badly (really, friends don't do that). Plus, I have a friend that "sticketh closer than a brother"......maybe I need to stick a little closer to Him.
Hello, my friend. Let's get up and exercise, get these meals planned, set ourselves up for a successful week.
Something else----I'm sitting here in an ugly granny dress. That does not promote a positive mental attitude. I need to dress up this week. I need to do my hair, feel pretty. Go, Amy, Go, go go go go go gogogogogogogoo go! You can do it.