Saturday, March 27, 2010

I have a dream.

The above pic is what I picture myself looking like at 180 pounds. I think it is realistic. I have the healthy me in my head....she is there....she is trying to get out. I have her under such bondage with all of this fat.
Spring Challenge requires that I write one good thing about myself each day. Today's entry is this: I have a dream. I KNOW what I want. I am not happy with how things are. Health and weight are included in this dream of course, but also being debt free and depression free and blood pressure pill free and doing a work for God, yada yada, so on and so forth. I have a vision...a hope...a goal...and I think that is a good thing. I have met people who are content to stay right where they are. They aren't looking forward to anything, aren't trying to achieve something. To me, that is sad. Anyway, I have always been a dreamer and I think that is a good quality.
What I ate today:
9:30 a.m....550 cals
3 scrambled eggs
3 pc. bacon (precooked oscar mayer)
2 biscuits
1 T. jelly
1 c. 2% milk
11:30 a.m.....330 cals
1 c. hot cocoa
half a pb & j
1:30 p.m..... 570 cals
3/4 c. bran flakes
1/2 c. granola
half a banana
1.5 c. 2% milk
3:30 p.m...300 cals
1 fiber one bar
1 nature valley bar
6:00 p.m.....830 cals
2 soft tacos
2/3 c. corn
approx half cup leftover rice
8:00 p.m.....300 cals
1 fiber on bar
1 nature valley bar
10:15 p.m.....385 cals
strawberry smoothie (I didn't like these at first, but now I do. I LEARNED to like them.)
cals= 3,265 (over limit by 54 cals....this was a total mistake because I added incorrectly)
water- 64 ounces whoo hoo!
exercise= 30 minutes on wii (4th day of exercise in a row!)


  1. Oh, I love this quality. To dream, to have a hope and a future... to see possibilities, to be open to what CAN be... I love it!

    I am like you, I think it is sad for people not to dream, to reach, to have a vision of something more.. not in a discontented way... But being open to be all God has in mind for us to be... to see the joy and beauty and possibilities, and not just exist or endure. But to LIVE.

    Yep, I like that quality a lot!

  2. Hello my friend! I'm confused... 3,265 calories?

    Very nice selection! Great job on the exercise consistency!!!

    My best always,

  3. Sean, our TOPS leader taught a lesson about reasons we fail and she said one reason was by trying to go from eating the HUGE amount of calories we normally do to going down to some tiny limit. She feels it is just too big of a jump. She wants us to multiply our weight times 12, then subtract 500, and let that be our calorie limit and recalculate it weekly. Coupled with water concumption and exercise, she said it will still produce a slow and steady weight loss. We will see! :)

  4. That's interesting about what your TOPS leader said. A few years ago I was taught by a nutritionist at a hospital-based wt loss program that said that active adult men used the 12 multiplier, and active adult women used 11 as their multiplier.

    I did that program for months, and they finally discovered my metabolism was so slow that my multiplier was barely 10, more like 9. Nowadays, it is 8!!

    And the intensity of regular, consistent exercise can help, that is why I am trying to up my exercise.

    When I started calorie counting, I started at 1999 (something psychological about getting out of the 2000's, ha ha) then went down every week or two by 50... 1950, 1900, 1850, 1800, etc.

    So I think she is right about the slow change, it works for some people... some people like the clean break and new start of a new low number, which gives fast results. It's an individual thing, I think, depending on your personality and readiness.


  5. Did you ever consider that your blog may be a work for God? I mean you are opening up, sharing a very human struggle, supporting others, sharing of yourself. It may not be "big" in what we think of, but it can be very powerful. I am very glad you're back as I enjoy reading what you have to say.

    Dreams are what take us to the next level. I love your dream...all the details. Don't forget to love yourself in the now, though. when the weight comes off, you'll be stronger, but you'll still be the same, wonderful soul.