Monday, April 13, 2009

Week 4,Monday,the binge











banana nut bread, fried chicken, mixed nuts, my hubby's easter candy, corn, black eyed peas, sweet tarts, fudge round, shells and cheese and on and on and on. There was a span of time of about an hour this evening that I told myself "I don't care. I don't care about calories. I'm going to eat this." And I did. I probably ate a three days worth of calories today. All of this started with the sugary fudge round. Deceitful sugar. It's like a drug. In the middle of my piece of chicken, shame attacked me. I got up and went to the track and walked a mile. I have a huge headache now but I haven't taken anything for it. I feel like I need to feel the pain I caused my body. My body is trying to tell me to stop hurting myself with gluttony.




Because my running points balance is WAY beyond negative 1,000 (again) I commit to fast and clease my system until 6 p.m. tomorrow (tuesday).




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