I have such an all or nothingness about me. It seems I either have a 100% successful day or a pretty much 100% floppy day. And weird, I know, but for me, it usually depends on how I START my day.
Hubby usually wakes me at 6 a.m. to pray with him before he goes to work. Then I have two choices: go back to bed or stay up. You wouldn't think that choice would determine my whole day but it sure seems to.
Probably 75% of the time, I go back to bed. I am a night owl. I get my 2nd wind around 9 p.m. and I just don't want to sleep! I can stay up until 2 a.m. or so most nights. So, of course, I don't want to stay up at 6! So, I usually go back to bed and wake up LATE. So late that I am ashamed and I'm not even going to tell you how late. Then I wake up after HOURS of sleep and I feel SO unenergetic. I think "I feel so tired--do I have cancer? Am I sick? Am I dying?" DRaaaaaaaaag.....like..a....snail. I also think "We are getting such a late start on the day, I really don't have time to exercise" and I jump into getting the kids fed and starting our schoolwork. Then the whole day is a whirlwind, I feel like I have been busy all day trying to get things done, and after everyone's in bed, I get on the computer for some ME time and........wouldn't you know it........stay up half the night. VICIOUS, TERRIBLE CYCLE.
But some mornings, I force myself to stay up (like this morning). I get dressed and do my Lesle Sansone dvd before the sun even rises. I eat breakfast and have some ME time before the kids are even awake (like, right now). I have a lot of housework done before the kids wake and the whole day just goes better. Then I'm usually so tired that night that I can go to bed at a decent hour and rest well. However, I never wake up feeling rested, so once again the next morning, it is a struggle to make myself NOT go back to bed. If I stay up, my energy increases.
Weird. but true.
One of the above pics is me after my workout this morning--the sun was just coming up. :) Concerning the other pic: Look how loose my skirt is! yay! When I exercise, it scoots itself around and I end up with the zipper not being in the front. Compare that with the older pic (full body, black top) --see how snug the skit was? That was October 21st. I was 310 then and as of this morning, my scale at home says 298, so that's 11 pounds. I haven't lost a lot of pounds but I obviously have lost some inches, so yay!
Quick comment, since you've changed your blog name your posts aren't updating on my reader. So it looks like your last post was 2 weeks ago --- frustrating. I tried deleting it and adding it back, but same thing. If you're missing any comments from people that would be why.
ReplyDeletePS - the 100% all or nothing - that's me too, but I am working on getting out of that mode because that can really throw me off my game. Oh, I ate 50 calories over my program? Might was well pig-out. I exaggerate, but you get my point, I'm sure. And yeah to the 11 lbs.
Hi new follower ;)
ReplyDeletecongrats on your weight loss and getting up and working out this morning.
try to go to bed earlier for some good rest ;)
wishing you much success!!!
Hi! I really admire how well you handle your challenges. Are you the member of a religion that forbids pants? I am not being sarcastic, but sincerely wondering why you don't wear track pants or something when you exercise. Are you not allowed to ask your husband if you can pray by yourself later? Just curious. Take care!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the loss. Sleep is hard for me, too. It's an area that requires discipline, that's for sure.
ReplyDeleteMy new wrinkle with sleep is that I get to bed early, then wake up 3 hours later and am awake until about 5 or 6 A.M. when I fall asleep for another hour or two.
sigh. Yeah, sleep is hard for some of us.
Deb
Congrats on your loss! Love the skirt moving around on you--that's a good sign.
ReplyDeleteYou're not weird--because if you are, I am. I'm the night owl, staying up late--it's when I'm most awake, most alert and can get a lot of things done.
We struggle and DH doesn't like the fact that school starts around 10 (or 11!!) but we get it all done. DS has inherited my night owl gene. We need to crack down, though, because he needs to learn to get up and go for the day when he is in college and then has to earn a paycheck.
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As far as sticking to itness or will power, it's all about, for me, mindful choices. I have to go choice by choice instead of day by day. . . each decision is a new path that can lead to health or obesity. Lately I have been having a hard time making GOOD choices consistently but I need to slow down and be mindful of what I'm choosing when I'm choosing . ..
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