fat floats.

*disclaimer* This post may make some people say "yuck!". Don't say you haven't been warned!


This past weekend, I was gifted with a trip to the Homeschool Mom's Winter Summit. IT WAS A BLAST.

To top it all off, they were out of regular rooms so they gave me the king size jacuzzi suite for the regular room price! cha ching!

Anyway.....I laid back in the jacuzzi and washed my hair (this jacuzzi was HUGE. I'm 6 feet tall and I could lie down!) and I realized just how much fat floats. I held my floating stomach in my hands and realized that it was all fat.... I realized the blob that will be missing when I am at my goal weight. And then I reached to the sides of the blob and felt my pelvic bones. I thought "wow. That's the REAL me. There's a small me under this blob of fat."

It sounds corny, I know. But I think this was the first time I felt my pelvic bones. I normally can't feel them.

I'm working daily to remove the blob. The skinny me is longing to be revealed :)


(p.s. I hit the 270's today :)

Being 100% even in stress.

I declared this week "100% on plan" week and am really focusing on staying on plan. (for me, this means eating in calorie range, 5 or more fruits and/or veggies per day, 45 minutes of exercise every day except Wednesday and 132 ounces of water daily). So far so good!

Tomorrow I go out of town for the night...to a homeschool mom's retreat and I am SO READY. Today I'm packing my water and healthy snacks so I can stay on plan while there!

Hubby goes to the dentist this afternoon. His teeth have hurt the past 2 days. We couldn't really afford for him to go yet...but we are making it happen.

My grandmother is in the hospital with various infections. She is very sick. She was going to stay with my kids on Friday until hubby got off work but not now! LOL So, mom and dad (who work nights and sleep days) with get to sleepily watch my kids. On top of it all, mom and dad have really been struggling with finances and they are stressed to the max so I hate adding more stress for them to deal with.

So....a lot going on here.

I'm staying 100% on plan, regardless. If I went off plan every time things got stressful, I'd be off plan most of the time=====and going nowhere. I'm going somewhere now.

50 pound pics

A friend made this for me. I prefer that it would say "In progress" or "After 50 pounds lost" instead of just "after" because I still have 91 pounds to goal. Nevertheless, this is what a 50 pound loss changed. I'm happy with it. :)

Now........................I need to work on time management because I'm struggling with everything I need to do around here and errands and TOPS responsibilities and getting my workout in. My house looks HORRID.

I think step one is LESS TIME ONLINE! ta-ta thanks for reading!

Open house and 50 pounds

Today I hit 50 pounds lost! I need post "before" and "in progress" pics. I hope to get that done this week. I still have 91 pounds to go. I'm going to get there though.

Last night we had Open House at TOPS. It was a LOT of work. I was SO exhausted last night and I still am quite tired. I poured so much of me into that Open House, physically, mentally, emotionally. BUT..........I am so glad I did it because we doubled our membership! We went from being a chapter of 8 to being a chapter of 16! Woot!

Plenty to do around here.. I just crashed on the couch last night after the Open House, clothes and glasses and all!!!!!!!!!! So, no prep was made for today. Things aren't ready for school, we don't have clothes ready, etc. I'd best be getting off the computer!

Thanks for reading! Pics should be posted within a week!

NEVER give me a pain pill.

I had a tooth pulled yesterday morning and didn't pick up my prescription pain meds. By the time hubby got home from work and fed me my mashed potatoes & gravy, I was in pain. He had picked up my pain meds and he gave me one--Lortab.

I got up and read facebook and even posted that I was starting to feel a little dizzy, but it wasn't a major dizzy. I just knew I probably needed to go to bed soon.........


.........I got up to go to the kitchen for something and had to sit down at the table. Hubby was washing dishes and we were talking when suddenly (and I mean BAM like a slap in the face, totally unexpected) I had severe anxiety, felt like I couldn't breath and that my heart was racing and I broke out in a cold sweat.....

....I remember slumping down in the chair because I felt like I couldn't even sit up right. Then things were spinning like faster than being on a tilt-a-whirl. I couldn't see. I knew I was going to pass out.......

Hubby later told me that I was looking around like crazy and that he was patting me on the cheek and holding my head upright and saying "Are you ok? Are you ok?" I don't remember that at all.

I threw up too.... and that is just something I don't do. Even through 3 pregnancies and morning sickness and everything I didn't vomit. I've thrown up maybe 10 times in my life. TMI, I know...


He said he was going to help me get to the bed and I think I stood up, leaning over on him and he was going to try to walk me at least to the couch in the next room..........

‎........but I passed out. (The only other time in my life I have passed out was when I was a kid and I fractured my arm)

...I passed out and I'm sure my hubby was glad I'd lost 46 pounds as he helped me down to the ground LOL I'm still too heavy for him to just pick up and carry to the couch but he did get me down to the ground without injuring myself

...so I didn't remember even standing up but it was like I was asleep and I woke up on the kitchen floor in my hubby's arms and my kids all in my face scared.....

he wanted to get me to the bed but I knew I should not stand up so he helped me CRAWL (so messed up I had to have help crawling! that is sad!) to the bed and he told me to NOT get out of bed without telling him!

.....and I slept like a rock. This morning I'm still weak and a bit dizzy...I'm taking it slow. But it is nothing compared to yesterday! wow! I don't plan to EVER take another pill like that one!

I'll be glad for this pill to be completely out of my system. Tomorrow night we have our TOPS walk.

I looked it up online and I had all the symptoms of an overdose--but I only took one pill.

wow.

run your OWN race

January 6, 2012,My 3 miles at the track took me 1 hour and 3 minutes (that's longer than last time *sad face*)...for 2 reasons: #1 I haven't walked at the track in a long time and even though I've been doing the Leslie Sansone walk at home dvd, it isn't the same. So, I'm out of practice. (Let this be a good reminder to be consistent with track walking when the weather allows). Reason #2 is because there were other people there walking and I started out too quickly, trying to make myself look more fit than I am (run your OWN race, silly girl, not someone else's)and then at the 3/4 mile mark, my calves totally cramped up on me and I had to sit on the bleachers a LONG time. I started to go home. It hurt! So, that's why my time is so bad today.

Until those plans come....

Several people asked what I was going to do until tax time, when I plan to do the once-per-week gym thing. I will keep doing what I do now---which is make sure I get in 45 minutes of exercise, 6 days per week. Usually, that is in the form of a Leslie Sansone dvd. Once in a blue moon, when the weather is nice, I load up the kids and go to the track.

I also want to say "hello!" and "welcome" to my new followers! It is nice to be read :)

ah ha plans.

Out of the blue, I had an "ah ha!" idea and I'm really looking forward to it.

The issues:
Since I homeschool, I am with my kids ALL THE TIME and I could really use "me time" on a regular basis. Mom used to watch the kids every week while I went to TOPS but the kids started going with me when I started my own chapter.

I love exercising on a treadmill but I can't justify (or afford) $45 per month when I can't even go because...............like I said, I always have my kids and I rarely have ME time.

I want to watch the Biggest Loser but we don't have cable or anything.

The "ah ha" solution:
Ask mom to commit to watching the kids every week when The Biggest Loser is on, and go to the gym, buy a day pass ($5) and walk/jog on the treadmill while watching the show on the tv's that are built in to the treadmill!

Oh yes.......

I ran it past hubby and we are going to wait until tax time (how sad that you have to wait until tax time to free up a measley $5, but anyway).... but effective about 6 weeks from now, that should be the plan.

I'm looking forward to it!

7 things every day

1. Eat within calorie range, always.

2. Exercise at least 45 minutes every day except Wednesdays.

3. Drink 132 oz or more of water every day.

4. Have at least 5 fruits/veggies daily.

5. Every night, text my numbers to my accountability friend.

6. Don't even think about going to bed until the next day's food has been planned.

7. Set out tomorrow's clothes before I go to bed. (huge time saver for me)


So there you have it, my New Year's resolutions :) So far, so good.

Wouldn't it be awesome to NEVER have a gain in 2012? I'm going to strive for that.

We had an awesome TOPS meeting last night.

I have been incredibly busy.

Rock this day, okay? ;) ttyl